Yep, you read right.
I've had to admit it.
I can't live a lie any longer.
I'm deeply, deeply ashamed.
Ashamed of being Jewish? No way. I'm very proud to be Jewish and a member of the Jewish people.
Ashamed of Israel? Wrong again. I'm proud of Israel's achievements. I worry about its policies, sometimes; I'm concerned, sometimes about some of its actions and those of some of its citizens, but I could say the same for Britain and I'm still proud to be British.
So why am I ashamed?
I'll tell you. I'm ashamed of Jews who say they are ashamed to be Jews or Jewish.
I don't hear Palestinians coming out to declare they are ashamed to be Palestinian and denounce suicide bombs or missiles.
I don't hear Arabs writing they are ashamed to be Arabs because of Al Qaeda or Sudan or Yemen.
I don't hear Muslims forming groups of shame because of what Sunni does to Shia, or 9/11, or 7/7, or Madrid, or Mumbai.
I don't know of any Ashamed Catholic groups forming because of the paedophilia apparently rife in Catholic clergy.
In fact I know of no other group of people who so often announce their ashamedness to be who they are as Jews do.
And you know what? It makes me ashamed. I'm an ashamed Jew who is ashamed of ashamed Jews. If that's a paradox, so be it.
And I'm not ashamed to declare my shame.
Shame on me!
I don't see why Arabs or Muslims or Palestinians or Brits or Americans or Chinese or anyone else should be ashamed of what they are because of the actions of a few.
If I'm ashamed to be a Jew because I don't like what Israel does that is a form of self-hating, it's bigotry - by golly, its anti-Semitic. If I hate all of a group because of the actions of some, then I am a bigot. And if I am the target of my own bigotry then I'm a pretty sick bigot.
On the Andrew Marr program this morning on BBC 1, the eponymous Scottish interviewer had the (Jewish) actress Miriam Margolyes in the studio reporting on a recent visit to Israel and the West Bank.
We see her approaching a young Palestinian woman and asking through an interpreter whether she can see where she lives. The woman, carrying a young child, takes her to a canvas tent.
Miriam is shocked and says 'no-one should have to live like this'.
I absolutely agree with her. No-one in the West Bank should be living in a tent. So why are they? Miriam believes it's because of the terrible Israelis who make her an 'ashamed Jew'.
Neither she nor Marr question why this woman lives like this. No-one asks why after 62 years a young woman whose grandparents left or were driven out of what is now Israel should be a refugee and have refugee status uniquely different from all other refugee groups in history.
Neither Margolyes or Marr wanted to mention or even wanted to entertain the idea that refugee camps, so-called, exist for one reason and one reason only: to deliberately perpetuate the victimhood of Palestinians and to preserve the idea, which Margolyes and other ashamed Jews have swallowed whole , that it is Israel who is responsible for these conditions.
Margolyes appears unaware that hundreds of thousands of Palestinians live comfortably on the West Bank in normal housing, She seems unaware that despite the billions of dollars poured into the Palestinian economy people are still allowed to live in tents and camps.
There is no need for it. Pakistanis are not living in tents three generations after their forbears fled India.
There are no refugee camps in Israel for the hundreds of thousands who were forced from their homes after 1948 from Egypt and Iraq and Syria and North Africa.
Marr asks 'Do you think being a Jew gives you a different authority, ability to talk about [the Palestinian question]?'
'The only authority I have is as a human being', Margolyes replies. So far, so good.
Then she says that it should not make a difference being Jewish or not Jewish to be able to comment on the situation but then says, somewhat in contradiction that she is 'embarrassed and ashamed' (that word again) because 'my "lot" is doing "it" to them'. She then says 'that's why I wanted to go there, to see for myself'. Fine. But it appears she had already made up her mind that 'her lot' where doing 'it' to 'them'.
Marr asks for her reaction and she then puts on a faux Arab accent and says that some said 'why do you come? You are a Jew. We hate you.' And then in her own voice 'And I totally understood why'.Yet, she doesn't understand why at all.
She doesn't understand that this hatred predates the Jewish state. She doesn't understand the daily diet of anti-Semitism that is fed to Palestinians in schools, newspapers and on TV.
Marr then asks a question which links the Holocaust to what he clearly believes is a given Israeli/Jewish paranoia.
He asks that, given Margolyes and her generation know what it's like growing up in the shadow of the Holocaust, does she not realise that Israelis feel hemmed in and beleaguered by Iran, suicide bombs and missiles.
She admits her sympathy. She knows what anti-Semitism is. But 'treating people the way the Israelis are treating the Palestinians is not making things better'. In other words, the blame for the situation is all on the Israeli side.
An then, lo and behold, the old ignorant trope comes out. 'What people forget over there is that the Palestinians were not responsible for the Holocaust.'
Arghhh! I'm so ashamed. What the hell has the Holocaust got to do with the situation? Is she suggesting that Israel exists because of Holocaust guilt? Is she suggesting that the Palestinians are paying for the crimes of Europeans?
If so, she is ignorant of her own people's history.
'They were not the enemy at that time', she says. But THEY WERE! The Mufti of Jerusalem was a friend of Hitler and organised Muslim Nazi brigades in Yugoslavia. He assured Hitler that he would solve the Jewish Question in Palestine.
Hamas and the PLO are the ideological progeny of the Muslim Brotherhood and its anti-Semitic policies.
Margolyes and other ashamed Jews need to educate themselves. I am sick of being ashamed of them.
What is she saying now? Oh yes, the Israelis should understand and accept that they owe reparation to the Palestinians just like the Jews expect it from the Germans.
So she, perhaps unwittingly, makes a moral equivalence between the way Jews were treated in the Holocaust and the way Palestinians, who have been hell-bent on another Holocaust for 100 years and certainly 60, have been treated by the Israelis.
Who attacked Israel in 1967? Why was the PLO formed in 1964 before there was any 'Occupation'?
The Israelis are behaving ''so cruelly'. Yes, sometimes all those with power over others behave cruelly. Maybe she should understand why Israelis might do so to Palestinians who want to kill them, and blow up their children on buses and in their beds. Why can she only see one side to this conflict?
Even Marr has to remind her about suicide attacks and rockets.
And then we get the real answer to Margolyes ashamedness. She is not a two-state solutionist.
She wants 'those people to be back in their own villages, which is what they want.'
How ignorant is this. They just want to go back to their villages. But their villages are Haifa and Jerusalem and Tel Aviv and Eilat and Beersheva. Margolyes is clearly advocating the end of the Jewish state as a deluded one-stater who believes the Palestinians, who she admits hate the Jews, just want to go back peacefully to their homes.
How often do we see people in the media like Miriam Margolyes, Jews and non-Jews, well-meaning, decent people who just do not understand. They live in their cosy left-wing bubbles dreaming of world peace where all will be luvvies.
Sorry Miriam. You are a very nice woman and a wonderful actress, but you are a deluded Jew. Go read some history. Go read the PLO charter and the Hamas charter.
Don't pose as a woman of peace when you clearly want a second Holocaust - because if you don't, then you need to wake up out of your deluded lefty dreams, you and all the ashamed Jews.
Until you do so, I will continue to be an ashamed of ashamed Jews Jew.
(first posted at http://www.raymondcook.net/blog/index.php/2010/10/31/why-im-an-ashamed-j... )