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David Robson

ByDavid Robson, David Robson

Opinion

Lifting the shadow of our pasts

October 23, 2014 13:09
2 min read

Just as a wedding anniversary may lead you to reflect on the state of your marriage, Simchat Torah makes me think of my relationship with the Sefer Torah. There have been many years where I hardly so much as caught sight of one. A psychiatrist may put this down to boyhood trauma. At my Jewish school, someone once dropped a sefer. It felt like a catastrophe and everyone had to fast for a day. After that I prayed not to be called to do the hagba Torah-lifting job. This remained true until the second day of Rosh Hashanah this year. I was one of few in a tiny shul, most of us not in our first or indeed second youth.

I could see the caller-uppers looking desperately for someone with a strong enough left arm to be trusted (the reading was from Genesis, so it was all left arm). I watched his eye move past me and alight on a fit-looking teenager behind me. Clearly, he thought I was past it. It felt like a pregnant woman offering me her seat on a bus. The only boyhood threat greater than lifting was leyning, actually being fingered to read from the Torah. When the school assembly was being scanned for potential performers it was a time to lie low.

But one day in the early 1970s such snivelling fears were overtaken by a moment of awe. I was taken into a second-floor room of a London synagogue -the Westminster, in Knightsbridge - and was presented with one of the most remarkable sights of my life: rack upon rack of Torah scrolls, more than 1,500 of them.

Has there ever in history been such an assemblage? Some were in excellent condition but most carried the damage of their terrible history. One was held together by a woman's corset, another had bloodstains. Some were beyond repair.