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ByJulia Renton, Julia Renton

Opinion

For many, today is not just Succot

October 7, 2014 14:36
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Three descriptions of living with schizophrenia:

Steven: "For five years, every time I left the house I heard voices, threats, telling me I was 'stupid; 'a loser'; 'an idiot' and other terrible things. I thought everyone was looking at me. I got into fights because of it, it was paralysing - the whole world was against me. I felt watched and judged. I wanted to quit college, and life. I stopped leaving the house and the only thing stopping me killing myself was my family and friend."

Debra: "The first time I went into hospital, I was about 14 and had been hearing voices for a long time. The voices were constantly shouting at me, telling me to kill myself, to kill other people, that I was fat, ugly, dirty and worthless. They told me to walk in front of the traffic, so I did. I saw images of dead people sitting on my bed; I thought that I was psychic and had a link with the other side and had been chosen to investigate their deaths. I was terrified all the time. I was so scared and drained that I just wanted it to end… if that meant jumping out of the window, then that's what I would have to do."

Mike: "It all started when I was taking my A level, I was predicted 3 A's. I began to think that I was a platform for a battle between good and evil. A good presence on my right side; a dark sense of evil on my left side… good versus evil - a constant battle. I was exhausted, I totally withdrew and stopped leaving the house. I was terrified for my future."